confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Whose line is it? I don't know. Sometimes I think maybe I should just use livejournal...diaryland's server fucking blows. But I think I feel better and more comfortable on here. I've written tons of entries against this ugly purple screen. I've had this false happy lately. I've been doing drugs and drinking and it's been making me so happy. I think I'd rather have a false happy then s true depression. It's a lot easier...it's like Brandon told me a long time ago, everyone has their drug, everyone has their thing that makes them happy. Some people actually choose drugs, some people choose sports, some people it's being mean. There's always something that makes you feel good. It's not negatively affecting my day to day life so I think I'm going to do what I'm going to do...actually, it hasn't effected by day to day life any. However, I did have a true happy today...that term sounds so fucking homo...I like it when I like a girl enough to where I can just lay there with her for two hours and talk about life and make jokes about being married. I also like it when she's nice to me...it makes any meaness go away, but I kind of like that too. I like everything about her. It's stupid, but it's seriously one of those little things that just make me really happy, and it makes all the bad times okay. I really enjoy smoking cigarettes... I've been listening to a lot of poppy crappy music, and I've loved it. Lot's of Maroon 5, and old school crap. It's nice to break away from that monotony that is associated with that emo kid way of life. I'm going to go enjoy life while this mood lasts. 9:40 p.m. - 2005-02-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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