confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- blurred I hurt WAY too many people, I don't want people to cry on my account. I want people to be happy. I'm a people pleaser to a way too far extent. Angel once told me that my intentions are good, but I do'nt think enough through it. I can't just date someone to make them happy then end it after a week and think I did something great...I never thought about that. I do hurt too many people, as Boomer so lovingly said, I do need to get my fucking life in order. But according to him I need to change just abotu everything about myself. I'm too lazy...I'm getting fat and gross. I don't remember the last time I showered, I think it was Saturday or Sunday morning. I can't be sure. During the week I just don't shower. I wake up too late and go to sleep too late. I'm disgusting. I'm just kidding, I do shower during the week, just not daily. I'm becoming uglier and uglier every day, and I"m gaining a ton of fucking weight. As soon as I get my license I"m getting a gym membership so I can loose some of this. No wonder no one's attracted to me. I looked in the mirror today and wanted to break it. I'm in such a random mood right now. I wonder how Nan's doing? If I hadn't gotten home at 11;45 tonight I would have claled her. I'm so worried about her, but I love her to death, and she should know that. I can't see the screen anymore because my vision is becoming so blurred. So I must go to bed. night. 12:58 a.m. - 2003-10-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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