confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- here's a long one for ya... I've learned a lot this weekend, about my friends, the real ones, about there boyfriends, or should I say hers. I've learned that Landslide by Fleetwood Mac should be Nan's song "Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've Built my life around you Time makes you bolder Even children get older And I'm getting older, too I'm getting older, too" ::sigh:: I won't explain it to her, but hopefully one day she'll see it for herself. I saw Rachel last night, it was pretty great. I miss her a lot. She's doing good I believe, and she deserves it. She's worked for everything she has right now, whether anyone thinks so or not. I realized last night that she never made me a copy of her "going away cd." I don't think I want her to make me one now just because I think it loses that going away present feeling. I have the case and I can go through and read the playlist a million times over, and it can be enough. She's the best person ever, and I wish we were as close as we always were. She just spreads herself thin sometimes I believe. Brandon just now put on a Glassjaw song for me to listen to while he cleans out his truck, and surprisingly it's pretty stellar...I'm normally not a big fan of Glassjaw with the exception of Her Middle Name was Boom. Yesterday I was thinking about a lot of things. I spent the part of the day I was awake with Brandon. And he was talking to CJ at one point about life, and music, ect. And I remembered thinking "I wish I were a musician and could have an outlet to let the world know how I feel about certain issues, ect." Then later that night I was riding in the car with Meggie and Brandon and CJ were in the back, and Meggie and I were singing along to All That Jazz. (I know it's weird...) But I realized then that acting is my outlet for that. It is a way to show the world how you feel about things. If you have the right show. I think I may want to go into playwriting/screenwriting for that purpose...as my way of sharing something with the world. A way of getting my views out there, except instead of an amazing song, it's an amazing move/play/ect. Although music is the primary focus of the group, I'm glad to know that someone other than myself is also really passionate about acting. Which is one of the million reasons why I love Meghann Shoudlers. Last night when Brandon and I were walking to his house at 3 in the morning he said to me "You and Meggie have a really amazing chemistry, platonically of course..." and I didn't say much of anything. But we really do. I love her so very much. The whole group up here has so many hopes and dreams but they always give up on them. I think the band/scene is the one thing everyone up here has followed through on. THere's always this amazing plan that seems like it's going to work and then someone get's mad at someone else, or someone somehow screws it up. It's just a sad thing because everyone here can and I'm sure will be something amazing one day whether it's a homeless guy sleeping out of Winn Dixie playing his guitar and loving his life or a rockstar still chasing that lessthan3 girl who got away...Everyone I'm sure will inevitable be happy. I just hope they let themselves. Everything I come up here there's a new person to loathe. Once it was Lloyd, then it was Ashley, now it's The Kelsh. It's a sad thing too, because I still love each of them. Everyone has problems and to be such a close knit group I think it's kind of crappy that instead of trying to help each other out they just give up, stop caring, and start hating, because that's the easiest thing to do. If Kelsh did steal that money, try to find out why and see what's goin on with her. Ashley is really overdramatic and sometimes annoying, try to help her out with that, Lloyd...well, he's Lloyd. But he still needs friends and such. But maybe I shouldn't be talking, it's not like I'm even in the group, If this group were a family I'd be more of a cousin who visits often. hearts and stars, Danny 10:34 a.m. - 2003-09-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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