confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Getting out of my head Wow, last night was insane...Brandon's mom is convinced that I slept all day due to a hang over. I tried telling her otherwise, I don't think she believes me, even though the truth is I was just exhausted today. So, so much for the sxe thing. I guess I knew I wouldn't stick to it. So I suppose I should just say I'm lowering my intake of everything... I went out to eat with Shelley and Neely last night...it wasn't as awkward as I was expecting. I miss her, yes, she's hot as crap, yet, she's amazing, yes. But she's not for me. Not anymore. We've both changed a lot. It was okay. I was able to except us being friends. I love her of course, but I'm not in love with her. People use to always tell me that about there "first loves" and I was never able to understand it until now. I will always have some feelings for her, and they will never subside. But it's okay. That's how it's supposed to be. Seeing her made me feel a lot better about, well, everything. I think I can handle moving on...well, maybe not moving on. But I guess I can handle her not in my life anymore. I'm comforable being friends with her. It's all good. I think she's finally leaving my head... This trip was fun. Last night I made a fool of myself, but it's okay. Just close friends. I think Nan's mad at me, but I wish she'd understand that I can't just do whatever she wants. I don't like being around Alex, and Tyler, and Alan, ect. They're nice don't get me wrong. It's just a comfort thing. I love her to death and I wanted to see her today, real bad. But whatever. hearts and stars, Danny 7:51 p.m. - 2003-09-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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