confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- bitching. For some reason I have been very sensitive to everything lately. Everyone can make me feel like crap just like that...I feel like I live the most boring life ever. Ryans about to be aired on fucking Survivor. I told Rachel that I was going to two shows and she told me about like the forty shes going to. Maybe I just feel like I can't keep up with her life. Everything I've said to her she's already known, and it seems like it irritates her that I try to tell her stuff. Oh well, I don't know how to explain it...My life pretty much revolves around Germantown high Schools fine arts department. But hey, I guess it's okay. Because the way I see it is almost everyone who comes out of there winds up a really big "big shot" and works for Fox or in films or something along those lines. So hopefully I'll be the same. And one day be really successful and people will tell there kids "yeah, I know him. We're good friends, I need to look him up and give him a call" And instead of me being jealous of the lives of my friends they'll be jealous of mine. I'm a boring person. I think I'm just overly sensitive as of late for whatever reason... Tonight I felt like the biggest loser. I realized "hey, I have no friends." I mean, at school, yeah I have a ton of friends and everyone is always all "aww, danny, i love you, you're the best, yadda yadda yadda" but when it comes down to it no one calls me to hang out, I don't have anyones number. My little sister is having her little group stay the night tonight and so my mom suggested I stay somewhere else tonight. I thought: hmm who can I stay with? then I realized, "well, Caiden, but he's out of town (bastard)" then I thought "William? No I never really talk to him" and then I realized. Wow, I have no other friends to stay with. All my friends once again went off to college. And the rest of them live 3 hours away. Then I tried thinking of regular friends. I have Eula but we never really hang out, Cara but she's always either with David or Boomer. Boomer but he's always with Cara. Mary Catherine but she's ALWAYS busy. and Caiden but I never really hang out with him now that he's out of production. I don't know. I'm just in a bitching mood, what else is new?....oh and Rachel if you read this don't think I'm mad or anything, I love you so much, I just feel so boring tonight. danny 11:55 p.m. - 2003-08-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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