confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Whatever she wants is fine. I hate relationships. I don't understand, she couldn't just tell me that she's not dating anyone else. All she could say was I read to much into everything. I'm tired of everything in life. I love her so much, I thought we were doing REALLY good now, but she couldn't just reassure me of anything. This all seems so dumb. I'm fine with out labels but I'm not fine knowing that she may be dating someone else. I'm not going to. Why can't she realize I'm not dating someone else and never will, I never have in the past, I've cheated on her and put her through hell that ONE time when she hurts me daily. I don't see us ending any time soon, but I don't see the next few weeks being very pleasant. I love her so much though, why can't she udnerstand that? She doesn't understand why I want to be with her even though she's so god damn selfish. Neely and Mason broke up today, I wonder if that has anything to do with Shelley and I. I treat her like a god damn princess. I could take her on a great date where she is almost hit by a car, but I push her out of the way and get hit, but she owuldn't be thankful for me pushing her out of the way, she'd be pissed that she was almost hit, and when I pushed her she broke her nail. She looks at the negative side of EVERYTHING. She strives on being negative But maybe she is right, maybe I do look too much into things. So tomorrow I will be a whole new person. We'll have a whoel new relationsihp. I will no longer tell her I love her or how much she means to me. I'm just going to just act the same as she does. I'm going to ask her not to tell me about her problems, when she tells me abotu coughing up blood, I'll just say "gross, I don't want to hear that" when she's upset abotu something I'll just say "get some sleep" we'll have a great relationship that way, because that's what she wants, and whatever she wants, is what I want. hearts and stars, Danny 12:18 a.m. - 2003-07-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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