confusion247's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Can't litsen to Emo It's weird how things turn out. All I wanted was to be the one to show her that yes, love is real, and that not all guys are terrible, and things do work out well. Instead I did the exact opposite, I made her not trust guys, not believe in love, ect. All that I can think about is the pain she must be going through. I'm not even worried about how I feel, I don't even deserve to have feelings...it's a sickening feeling when you listen to "watching him keep the details covered, you're such a sucker for the sweet talker yeah..." and realize that you are the one they're singing about. You're the one they hate. Or "screaming infidelities and taking its wear" and realizeing that you're the reason people make that music. You're the asshole. You're no longer the one being hurt, you are the hurter. I can't even listen to it anymore. I can't even look in the mirror. I've thrown up twice, sliced four times...I thought our relationship was shit, and now I realize it was the only meaningfull relationship I've ever ever had. I had thought about breaking up with her for a while, just because our relationship was so awkward. And finally as soon as I realize that doesn't matter as long as the feelings are still there then it didn't matter. It's funny how when things start to work out your past catches up with you in an instant and everything fucks up. -Danny 1:00 p.m. - 2003-06-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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